Letter to Blue Eyes

I gotta be honest with you Blue Eyes, we were not friends, we were nothing, at least nothing to index somewhere.
If you want to die alone, that is your decision not mine, try to wake up now, tomorrow could be really late.
I loved you so much, and you despised me, insulted me, played with me.
Unfortunately i still love you i guess that results on the actual pain i am feeling right now.
Tell me the truth Blue Eyes : was not easier say a simple and outright "bye"?, why the nice things?
was that really necessary?
Blue Eyes, lovely Blue Eyes, you knew i was in one of my worse personal moments and you left.... what a great friend you are!!!, i should buy you a big present!!!
You were so insulting , you have no idea, there is a limitation to "sorry", there is a point where it does not mean anything.
the main question would be : Why do i love you, right?
Well... maybe i'm too positive so i naively think you are able to change and love me, terrible reasoning, but having terrible reasonings is part of life righ?
You can change but the thing is you don't want to, you are to "at ease" waiting for some magic woman fell from heaven to save you and love you, the reality is that's not gonna happen, i'm sorry Blue Eyes, i gotta be honest with you.
I still think you are beautiful, because... you are, period.
But that does not mean, i am not angry with you, i feel at least used.
My friends were right you did not and dont deserve me, i am too much for you.
And remember Blue Eyes, begging for love it's a waste of time.